i am just a fiction of your imagination.

i couldn't have survived. the sun is not a planet, it's a star. am i right?

You Are From the Sun

Of all your friends, you're the shining star. You're dramatic - loving attention and the spotlight. You're a totally entertainer and the life of the party. Watch out! The Sun can be stubborn, demanding, and flirty. Overall, you're a great leader and great friend. The very best!

What Planet Are You From?

na na na na na na na na na ...

9 more days and i'm a normal person. at least i will seem like.

7 more working days for me. hay. i'm pretty excited to start sleeping again. recently i've been enjoying nap time. my mind is spinning just thinking about all the things that i can and will be doing once i have the time. especially time with other people. i can work on:

1. spending time with my bebe.
2. spending time with my man. naks. just in case there is one.
3. my band. not the one with the kids. there will be a new one before december. (if you build, they will come....)
4. my writing, which i have neglected for some time now.
5. my gardening(which i find sooo therapeutic!) i'm actually planning on taking care/growing/cultivating bonsai. whatever you call it. i'm planning to go with a guy friend who's interested too. but i think i'll rekindle my love affair with my herbs first, then move on to flowers, then to bonsai whatever.
6. cooking! i'll perfect my pasta dishes, practice cheesy toppings and work on chocolate anything.
7. arts and crafts. last year i made so many bracelets. i still dunno what my next project will be but i bought a kit recently for all my craft related stuff. i'm pretty excited.
8. sports. definitely it's badminton thrice a week for me. i'm planning on signing up for thai kickboxing or kendo at ultra. the last time i was there it was fencing. i hope they have afternoon or evening trainings though.

thinking about the schedule change puts me in a good mood. for just a few minutes, and then ...

argh. i have a problem. i'm confused right now. *crushcrush* my heart. details soon.

satc made me cry last night. *sigh*

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Dyslexic Heart (Paul Westerberg)
singles soundtrack

Na nanana na nanana na na
Na na na na nana etc.
Ah ah ah...

You shoot me glances and they're so hard to read
I misconstrue what you mean
Slip me a napkin and now that you start
Is this your name or a doctor's eye chart?

I try and comprehend you but I got a dyslexic heart
I ain't dying to offend you, I got a dyslexic heart

Thanks for the book, now my table is ready
Is this a library or bar?
Between the covers I thought you were ready
A half-angel, half-tart

Do I read you correctly, lead me directly
Help me with this part
Do I hate you? do I date you?
Do I got a dyslexic heart?

You keep swayin?... what are you sayin??
Thinking 'bout stayin??
Or are you just playing, making passes
Well, my heart could use some glasses

footnote in part one

this is the (*) after the word non-strictness in part one.

pixie » how do you say "lack of strictness?" - non-strictness?
bibba » what the hell? why are you making things so complicated for you? ha?
bibba » non-strictness is neutral. does that word even exist? I haven't got the slightest idea.
pixie » sige na...my brain is soup right now..
pixie » you know how much i love making up words...but i dont want my made up words to seem like incorrect words.. sige naaaaa...
bibba » liberal = not strict. does that help? i know you're asking for lack of strictness. sorry. hey, anyone, help?
bibba » soup? what kind? muni-muni soup. ahem.
pixie » ahem. the muni soup woke me up a while ago..
pixie » it's actually the "help me i'm drowning in my soup" soup kind of soup. hehehe..
bibba » yeah, right. you know what? you need rain, with lightning and thunders. haha.
pixie » sheesh! you really want ME dead??!!
bibba » so you already got that figured out, huh? yes I want you dead. so what?
pixie » and on your posts..parang ako ang masama...boohoohoo...
bibba » hindi ba? aminin mo na, guilty ka.
bibba » oist! let's go home!
pixie » oo. i am evil...and i like it!! hahahahahaha(draculaish...)
bibba » don't change the subject. I said I want you dead. whatcha gonna with that? ha?
bibba » tara na.

this is how affectionate we are.

part three

oh, the hard..heart part now.
okay, it's true. i don't want to elaborate.

i'm kidding..about not wanting to elaborate.

maybe i should change that heart statement..change wonder to wander..or berserk? if i were to follow the logic (if any) to that less rice thing, that would follow either one of these:
1. the less i see person, the less i eat person. (now that's not nice, isn't it?;p)
2. the less i see person, the less i think of person
3. the less there is "heart", the less need for "heart"

(and all these wouldn't follow absence makes the heart go wonder...hahaha! ooops. this less rice thing is working, but this less sleep thing is really turning my brain into soup! hay!

oh well, for the sake of argument (karen vs karen), for this three part misguided series, let me waste your time some more...)

what am i trying to say here? those labor-intensive weeks ruined my diet. that's it. i thought i could go on without rice, plain, steamy, so white. i thought i lost my rice affair. but no. now i understand why kain-karpintero is 4cupsofrice is to 1 serving of ulam. (no offense to karpinteros, of course). not seeing rice or being with rice doesn't mean there's no love for rice anymore. though it did make me wonder if things would be the same between us..if rice would still accept me and like me, or if i still like rice or even love rice for that matter. the bottom line is : i love rice. i don't care if it's carbo loading.

if only rice could talk.

i carbo loaded for just a few days though. i got back to my senses and realized that i already decided how much rice i should take (minimal) and that i should stick to it. as for my affairs though, i think no matter how tough i turned out to be, i'm still all heart. even if i suspect that it might be too much, i'm still all heart. until i decide to stop. and when i do, there's no turning back.

so my conclusion.

absence does make the heart go wonder. (didn't i tell you right from the start?) or sabik even. until i decide i'm too fat. ;p

part two

back to the diet..
i also tried diet pills - Ballerina. this one i got at Divi. it worked, wouldn't let you eat not because you dont like the food but because you wont feel like eating. but i love eating, so this one had to go. Bangkok Pills. i swore to myself before that i wouldn't try this. but i did coz i had a friend who was taking BP. anyway, i tried it for two days. it worked immediately, but i looked like a zombie. so i decided to stop.

this 0-1ricemeal/day diet is my fave. it's actually ideal for my weird sked. what happens is i eat rice only during normal peeps lunchtime, which is like dinner for me (that is if i sleep). i usually skip dinner (normal time), which is breakfast for me and go to work. by breakfast(normal time) which is actually lunch for me, i either eat my sausage mcmuffin, or pancakes, or my newly discovered bunwich. if i skip that, i have pasta or pizza at glorietta.

now the two week break got me into thinking mode, among other things. and when i have time to think, one thing that i often think about is my love life.

so, i was thinking, if the absence of rice does my tummy wonders (coz it's more like "the less i see rice, the less i eat rice" kinda thing for me) could it be true that absence makes the heart go wonder?

part three tomorrow..

part one

hibernated for 2 weeks. initially it was supposed to be just for one, but my bebe got sick so it got extended to two. anyway, that short "vacation" got my creative juices flowing a bit. i got a room makeover(washover actually):i rearranged my bed, drawers, cabinets and computer. my doors and cabinets are now red, i installed (how handymannish!) lights and wooden blinds. my walls still need a new color coz i haven't really decided which color to splash yet. definitely before christmas, a new room i will have.

that week off got me painting, working, shopping, sleeping, bodyclock now malfunctioning. but two things post worthy: eating and thinking.

i've been on a 0-1ricemeal/day "diet" for more than a month now. it seems to have worked. it wasn't a strict diet, and i guess the non-strictness(*) of the whole thing was what kept me stuck to it. there's the atkins diet, which i'm so not interested in trying. the southbeach diet which i almost tried but flaked out after shopping for goodies. the threeday diet - tried a couple of times, worked all the time, but i didnt feel like eating beets all the time.

part two tomorrow..hehehe..

i'm back.
this online test made me laugh!

I am the Siren A man is often secretly oppressed by the role he has to play - by always having to be responsible, in control, and rational. The Siren is the ultimate male fantasy figure because she offers a total release form the limitations of his life. In her presence, which is always heightened and sexually charged, the male feels transported to a realm of pure pleasure. In a world where women are often too timid to project such an image, learn to take control of the male libido by embodying his fantasy. Symbol: Water. The song of the Siren is liquid and enticing, and the Siren herself is fluid and ungraspable. Like the sea, the Siren lures you with the promise of infinite adventure and pleasure. Forgetting past and future, men follow her far out to sea, where they drown.

What Type of Seducer are You?
created by polite_society

me and my bebe.

went out on a date yesterday...with my bebe!

i was soo tired when i got home yesterday, but i remembered that he didn't have school so i decided to surprise him and ask him out for a date. usually, when i get home, i head to my room and sleep. yesterday, my bebe was watching cartoons when i got inside the house. he looked happy upon seeing me and we did our usual routine: he hugs me, i carry him, he kisses me, i kiss him, we hug and then he wouldn't let go. hehehe. i asked him if he ate already. he said yes, and then he asked me if i ate. i said yes. i asked him if he took a shower already (obviously he hasn't) and he just grinned. i told him he better take a shower now so we could watch a movie because i needed to sleep and i had work later. suddenly, his eyes go wide, his jaws drop and he goes, "whaa? movie??" with a big grin on his face. and then i said, "ayaw mo?" hahahaha! he jumped and rushed to the bathroom. when i went upstairs to my room, he was behind me already, dripping wet.

we watched shark tale and it was fun! i was actually sleepy so i wasn't laughing as much as i wanted to. he was, though. my bebe's really funny, he was so excited about this line that jack black's character (he pointed that out to me) was going to say. the movie just started and he already was explaining to me that that particular shark was a vegetarian. "mamy, look, he's a vegetarian!" kulit! we ordered fruit shakes and got a large tumbler of popcorn. his fave is mango shake, which we buy everytime we go out. when we go to the grocery, it's always peanuts. always always. :)

more on my bebe next time.

that was it. when we got home i was really tired, i slept. was supposed to meet up with Sweet80sContraDiva and friend at Greenbelt but was too tired i didn't get up til 530a. half day again at the office.

tonight i have a hotel gig. ContraDiva and i agreed to meet at Glorietta at 1230p to shop. a friend also invited me to go partee tonight. i'm not sure if i'll go though. maybe if i'm in a partee mood.

plus i'm sick. i think. my muscles hurt a bit, maybe from having too much fun the night before. hehehe.

ShopBud and more.

did so many things with ShopBud yesterday.

>"coffee of the day two" experience at starbucks. so it's coffee of the day + almond syrup. this time we chose muay jai, the other day it was decaf sumatra. both, we were told, were earthy and bold. ShopBud and i agreed that we liked decaf sumatra better. muay jai just tasted too...barako. :)

>ate lunch at frenchbaker. since we were facing people coming from landmark going to glorietta, we had a great time doing some people watching (read: panglalait to the nth power!hehehe!)

>took candid shots of each other in greenbelt 3 using her green digicam, we bought it last month....oh okay, so they weren't candid, so what? :p

>our usual trip to powerbooks and any store that sells shoes. joy!

>watched Historias minimas at greenbelt 1 for the spanish festival (c/o instituto cervantes). this would be part two of our arsty-farty fix. laughed a lot inside the theater - us two, a spanish lady behind us, and an old lady who was a seat away from ShopBud. i wouldn't classify it as comedy. but it was fun.

>timezone - cars and korean machines. we were tempted to take a pic there, too. placing the camera on the "dashboard" on one of the cars there showcased our greatest asset - our smiles! hahahahaha!

>and..free coffee at glorietta. we couldn't resist, so we had to get some.

it was pretty tiring, but a welcome feeling. i was weird this morning, well yesterday morning. for some unknown reason, i was feeling bluesy, and agitated. good thing everything turned around. band rehearsal last night, met up with a friend after. and that all-day-all-night kfc to cap the night.