me and my bebe.

went out on a date yesterday...with my bebe!

i was soo tired when i got home yesterday, but i remembered that he didn't have school so i decided to surprise him and ask him out for a date. usually, when i get home, i head to my room and sleep. yesterday, my bebe was watching cartoons when i got inside the house. he looked happy upon seeing me and we did our usual routine: he hugs me, i carry him, he kisses me, i kiss him, we hug and then he wouldn't let go. hehehe. i asked him if he ate already. he said yes, and then he asked me if i ate. i said yes. i asked him if he took a shower already (obviously he hasn't) and he just grinned. i told him he better take a shower now so we could watch a movie because i needed to sleep and i had work later. suddenly, his eyes go wide, his jaws drop and he goes, "whaa? movie??" with a big grin on his face. and then i said, "ayaw mo?" hahahaha! he jumped and rushed to the bathroom. when i went upstairs to my room, he was behind me already, dripping wet.

we watched shark tale and it was fun! i was actually sleepy so i wasn't laughing as much as i wanted to. he was, though. my bebe's really funny, he was so excited about this line that jack black's character (he pointed that out to me) was going to say. the movie just started and he already was explaining to me that that particular shark was a vegetarian. "mamy, look, he's a vegetarian!" kulit! we ordered fruit shakes and got a large tumbler of popcorn. his fave is mango shake, which we buy everytime we go out. when we go to the grocery, it's always peanuts. always always. :)

more on my bebe next time.

that was it. when we got home i was really tired, i slept. was supposed to meet up with Sweet80sContraDiva and friend at Greenbelt but was too tired i didn't get up til 530a. half day again at the office.

tonight i have a hotel gig. ContraDiva and i agreed to meet at Glorietta at 1230p to shop. a friend also invited me to go partee tonight. i'm not sure if i'll go though. maybe if i'm in a partee mood.

plus i'm sick. i think. my muscles hurt a bit, maybe from having too much fun the night before. hehehe.

ShopBud and more.

did so many things with ShopBud yesterday.

>"coffee of the day two" experience at starbucks. so it's coffee of the day + almond syrup. this time we chose muay jai, the other day it was decaf sumatra. both, we were told, were earthy and bold. ShopBud and i agreed that we liked decaf sumatra better. muay jai just tasted too...barako. :)

>ate lunch at frenchbaker. since we were facing people coming from landmark going to glorietta, we had a great time doing some people watching (read: panglalait to the nth power!hehehe!)

>took candid shots of each other in greenbelt 3 using her green digicam, we bought it last month....oh okay, so they weren't candid, so what? :p

>our usual trip to powerbooks and any store that sells shoes. joy!

>watched Historias minimas at greenbelt 1 for the spanish festival (c/o instituto cervantes). this would be part two of our arsty-farty fix. laughed a lot inside the theater - us two, a spanish lady behind us, and an old lady who was a seat away from ShopBud. i wouldn't classify it as comedy. but it was fun.

>timezone - cars and korean machines. we were tempted to take a pic there, too. placing the camera on the "dashboard" on one of the cars there showcased our greatest asset - our smiles! hahahahaha!

>and..free coffee at glorietta. we couldn't resist, so we had to get some.

it was pretty tiring, but a welcome feeling. i was weird this morning, well yesterday morning. for some unknown reason, i was feeling bluesy, and agitated. good thing everything turned around. band rehearsal last night, met up with a friend after. and that all-day-all-night kfc to cap the night.

i am so screwed.

i have a 69 green benz parked in our garage. two years ago, i decided to have charlie look at it to have it restored. he asked me for the or/cr before they bring it to the shop. so i had it photocopied. and then i never got back to it. everyday for the past two years, i swore to myself i'd give charlie a call. every time i got close to doing that, i would either forget where i put the car keys or the or/cr that they needed.

now, my brother just called me. he had a buyer for the benz and needed the papers. where they are, only st. anthony would know that right now. my brother's been bugging me about it for about three days now. shit. i did try to look for it last night, brought out all my bags, and rummaged through each and every pocket. nada. the last time i remember seeing those, they were in my black oriental bag. and they weren't there anymore. what makes everything worse is, my britney wanna be maid cleaned my room. i dunno where everything is anymore.

so now, i am kinda scared to go home. not that im scared of my brother, he's a year younger (though he thinks he's older...studying in UPBaguio messed his mind up). i just dont feel like discussing things with him right now. i am so not in the mood.

then my job thing.

argh. i filed for leave oct 15, oct 20-22. right now, GuitarGoddess is frolicking in the beach. it was supposed to be sagada. with me. i might do that on oct 20. if i'm brave enough to go there on my own. or maybe if i could get someone to swim with me.

i miss not having a real world notebook journal. i used up all the pages already. i need to get a new one.

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super call

last week, i got a text message, from instituto cervantes about a photo exhibit at the ayala museum. i knew exactly who to bug about this. shopbud. shopbud and i felt artsy-fartsy that same morning i got the text. we went to a photo exhibit on Gaudi's architectural masterpieces. photo exhibit of marc llimargas', a photographer and architect. it was refreshing i must say. more to come.

shopbud is a couple of years younger than i am, but i love hanging out with her. we hit it off when we knew each other last december. i think. shopbud is more than a shopbud, really. special post on her next time.

last week was battle with migraines week for me. my last bout was last friday, so i decided to call in and tell them that i wasn't going to work. a few mins after, while deciding whether to throw up or just imagine the throbbing in my head to go away, i got a call from an unfamiliar number. i assumed it was my super.

"hello, cess?"
"hello, this is (the other sup)."
"okay."
"did you call forcedesk a while ago? did you call in that you weren't reporting for work?"
"yes. i called forcedesk." (and then, she was shouting "what time is it now...1220? ha?1220? - in an attempt to make me sindak.)
"what time is your shift?"
"1230."
"kasi (the manager) was about to pick up the phone when your call was transferred to him by forcedesk...why did you hang up? bakit mo binaba yung phone?" with her taray voice, she thought she got me.
"naputol yung line," and then the winning hirit, "should i call him?should i call (the manager)?"
hahaha! that set her off. wahahahahaha! silence.
"kasi he was about to pick up the phone, that's why he asked me to call you...why can't you report for work?" trying to regain her authority..what authority??
"migraine. i drank my meds already, two geltabs of excedrin, i'm just waiting for it to take effect."
"can you come in half day?" still trying to sound taray..but she's sooo not effective. to me at least.
"i'll try ha."

and that was the end of it. i turned my phone off. and tried to get decent sleep.

thing is, i've been having interrupted sleep for the past days. on restdays and sick/dontfeellikeworking days..hay. i will go on vacation soon.

and what happened today?

gig last night at bykes. i think we've improved a lot. i'd consider it a satisfying gig, quality wise. we didn't have the usual audience, overflowing with friends and family, but i liked our set. we sounded great. one of my faves.

had another post shift mcdo breakfast yesterday. almost didn't make it. satisfying. yum.

saw an old friend also, we were batchmates in the office, but he resigned a few weeks later. after the standard catching up chat, he suddenly goes, "btw, i'm gay." whoa. totally unexpected. i haven't seen this guy..uhm gay in more than 6 months! so, it's either he thought i was secretly in love with him(tho i don't know where he'll get that idea..) or he sincerely wanted to be friends with me. i think it's the latter. maybe he wanted me to be his girl friend. cool with me. he loves horror movies too.

the only thing i liked about this morning..i got to chat briefly with a good friend. i miss her terribly. so i told her, for her birthday next year, i'll try to fly to malaysia to greet her personally. hopefully with a boytoy. hehehe.

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yesterday was a great day.

1. so very few calls. maybe something was wrong with the phone lines, who cares? downtime was great, so great i had a mini-concert. i was waiting to be approached by one of the team managers to get a spanking, but surprisingly, they were nowhere to be found. everybody had fun and got entertained.
2. got stuck at 25, yeah! there was this new girl who was quietly doing her work across my workstation. maybe i disrupted her solemn state. she suddenly offered me chocolates. so i thought, what for? but she looked so sweet and timid, i had to accept. hehehe. after a few minutes, ShopBud(who was sitting next to her) and i resumed our on-off chitchat, and i don't know how it happened, but i suddenly realized i was already talking to Chocogirl and that she was already a chitchat groupie. hmm. it was as if she was so amused witnessing my miniconcert, caught her a couple of times staring at me (OH NO! A FAN! HEHEHE) so i asked her, "how old do you think am i?" "25." she got the number one fan spot.
3. mcdo addict. just when i thought i wouldn't have my sausage mcmuffin on the first day of my working week..tadah! met up with a friend for breakfast yesterday before 10a, after shift. yum. it was a fun morning. i think we were laughing most of the time.

more than i do

i can always be your baby
call me honey, love or sweetie
if you promise to be true
that you won't break my heart in two
oh i will love you
more than i do right now
you see i do.

i can give you hugs and kisses
walks or talks til your heart pleases
if you say that you are mine
and that i'm your love divine
oh i will love you
more than i do right now
i will be true.

i don't know if you even think of me
or even know that i am here for you
i just wish that somehow
you'd see that right now
i would give the world for you.

i can give you love so tender
my heart you can keep forever
i just need to hear you say
that your love is here to stay
oh i will love you
more than i do right now
more than i know how
i promise to.

-4oct2004

doing stuff alone.

after shift, went to glorietta. i really have been enjoying doing my muni-muni walks. the weather is great and the few times i've done this, i've always been tempted to do a stopover at starbucks for a steaming cafe mocha. thing is, i haven't had a coffee trigger for a while, i dunno if my current state would bring that back. i don't think i'd like to feel honest and not do anything about it...though i haven't felt honest in a while now. i kinda miss that.

anyway, since ContraDiva was taking so loong to get to Makati, i decided to watch a movie by myself. it was a toss between bourne supremacy and resident evil. i chose to get my horror fix instead. it's something i haven't done yet. haven't watched a zombie flick on my own. and after that, i promised myself i wouldn't watch a horror flick on my own ever again...never never never again. also, never after shift. my eyes closed a couple of times...almost fell asleep.

after a few more hours, i was able to finally meet up with ContraDiva. she texted the kids pala about what happened with the other band - this deserves another post. they were so happy they invited us to celebrate "Karen's refusal" at the Fort. start of Octoberfest!!!

haven't had enough sleep. for a couple of days now. and i've been bluesy and out of sync. though i am getting my groove back...which reminds me, a friend of mine is getting his too. hope he gets his all tuned up and groovin. i need to go on vacation real soon. and i mean real soon. definitely not alone and on my own. i've been bluesy the past weeks i dont think i'd want to be alone. at least for that vacation.

recently i've been thinking of how some people just take other people's presence for granted. i don't want to think of it as boredom or overfamiliarity, it's such an easy excuse to rid of people you dislike. i don't know if the solution to that is as simple as "don't surround yourself with people you don't like." i want to be able to enjoy a person's individuality or his character, uninterrupted. without obnoxious people breathing down my neck. so where am i getting at? i dont know. hehehe.

i think i mentioned before in an entry that i enjoy being on my own. breakfast alone. walking alone. letting the breeze kiss my cheeks...alone. i find it therapeutic, in a way. i hear myself think. but also, i think detaching myself from people would help me appreciate being with them or being around them more. specifically, if i experience or immerse myself in solitude, and then the time comes when the universe finally finds a match for me, i am sure there will be a heightened sense of our coming together. can't wait, can't wait!

i hope the universe finds my match, and drags his feet next to mine soon.

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i need sleep.
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dear diary

confused as to what to order for breakfast, i decided to order pancakes with sausage. i had sausage mcmuffin yesterday and realized that i've had enough mcmuffins for this week. it was yummy and very heavy.

obviously, i didn't get to watch angela bofill yesterday at glorietta. if i did, it would've been my headliner. i was able to watch her concert at the araneta a few years back. i think it was valentine's day, and i had this guy holding my hand the whole time. it was pretty sweet. maybe that's the reason why i didn't get to see her show...to spare me from memories that i already had boxed up and stacked behind my preschool memory box. hehehe. nah, it wasn't that bad. the moment was almost perfect. perfect if he turned out to be the right guy. but he didn't.

i think i'm gonna be sick. i got wet from the sudden downpour yesterday as i left the building. that plus i was pretty damn tired. no fever or anything of that sort. went straight to ContraDiva's house yesterday after shift. we had an animated lunch, with me reenacting bits and pieces of what transpired wednesday night. and that's me reenacting not just her, but the kids too! it was pretty hilarious. i told her i'd put her into rehab if that would make her feel better. she almost kicked me out of the house. hehehe.

after eating lunch, we went to the studio for recording. slept during down time, while they were mixing. it amazes me how easy it is for me now to get some, wherever, whenever and whatever the situation is. i used to have such a hard time getting sleep, especially since i have insomnia. but it's not that hard anymore. thank the call center job for that. i like it.

i got another job offer to work at the studio. she said it was up to me if i wanted to do it parttime or full time. she just wants me to help her out there. pretty cool, i think, coz im interested to find out how the whole set up works. told her i'd think about it first. i might say yes though.

we finished the recording at around 630p. after that we went to the mall for a dinner/movie date. but i had to beg off from the movie. i knew i had to get at least an hour of sleep. and if we were to watch a movie, i'd be getting no sleep at all! we decided to just postpone the movie date and settled for a pizza dinner instead.

ContraDiva and partner have been trying to set me up with this guy for months now. he's nice. he's also an architect. one of his projects - IO. went there twice already, although i didn't stay long when we went there the second time because i had to be somewhere else. anyway, i told ContraDiva that just in case this guy is planning on courting me, to tell him not to dare do it. hah! i don't feel anything for this guy, although he seems okay enough. i'm okay with dating. but i don't think he's the guy i'd like to get serious with.

went home after dinner, almost woke up after an hour's sleep to meet with friends at 77, but decided not to. woke up at 12, took a shower, and went to work. another day.

tonight i'm going out. i hope.