doing stuff alone.

after shift, went to glorietta. i really have been enjoying doing my muni-muni walks. the weather is great and the few times i've done this, i've always been tempted to do a stopover at starbucks for a steaming cafe mocha. thing is, i haven't had a coffee trigger for a while, i dunno if my current state would bring that back. i don't think i'd like to feel honest and not do anything about it...though i haven't felt honest in a while now. i kinda miss that.

anyway, since ContraDiva was taking so loong to get to Makati, i decided to watch a movie by myself. it was a toss between bourne supremacy and resident evil. i chose to get my horror fix instead. it's something i haven't done yet. haven't watched a zombie flick on my own. and after that, i promised myself i wouldn't watch a horror flick on my own ever again...never never never again. also, never after shift. my eyes closed a couple of times...almost fell asleep.

after a few more hours, i was able to finally meet up with ContraDiva. she texted the kids pala about what happened with the other band - this deserves another post. they were so happy they invited us to celebrate "Karen's refusal" at the Fort. start of Octoberfest!!!

haven't had enough sleep. for a couple of days now. and i've been bluesy and out of sync. though i am getting my groove back...which reminds me, a friend of mine is getting his too. hope he gets his all tuned up and groovin. i need to go on vacation real soon. and i mean real soon. definitely not alone and on my own. i've been bluesy the past weeks i dont think i'd want to be alone. at least for that vacation.

recently i've been thinking of how some people just take other people's presence for granted. i don't want to think of it as boredom or overfamiliarity, it's such an easy excuse to rid of people you dislike. i don't know if the solution to that is as simple as "don't surround yourself with people you don't like." i want to be able to enjoy a person's individuality or his character, uninterrupted. without obnoxious people breathing down my neck. so where am i getting at? i dont know. hehehe.

i think i mentioned before in an entry that i enjoy being on my own. breakfast alone. walking alone. letting the breeze kiss my cheeks...alone. i find it therapeutic, in a way. i hear myself think. but also, i think detaching myself from people would help me appreciate being with them or being around them more. specifically, if i experience or immerse myself in solitude, and then the time comes when the universe finally finds a match for me, i am sure there will be a heightened sense of our coming together. can't wait, can't wait!

i hope the universe finds my match, and drags his feet next to mine soon.

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i need sleep.
"when the phone turns back on just go back to service menu and check his bag"
"enter 04126 for the code and then look for eric"